| Current mood: |  crushed |
I keep thinking about summer and how much I can't wait for it too come and how it should be really fun. But lately I've been thinking about how Natasha is going to be around and I can't stand her and how much of an outsider I feel like sometimes because I'm not quite the same age as everyone else, I can't legally drink that is. Then I think about how I am going to have to leave Ryan behind. The only guy who has ever treated me decent because he likes me and not becuase he wants to get in my pants. And who can deal with me being the bitch that I am. I don't want to leave him behind and it makes me sad. I know its only three months and I know that him and the others are all supposed to come up and go rafting but still... I've invested myself deeper than I should have, deeper than I wanted to. I need out. Fast. I hate feeling like this.
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